W is for Wind

WThis happened last year but I remember it as if it were yesterday. Well, it kinda was. Last month there was yet another wind storm that had its way with me. But last year was really crazy because I had never felt wind the way I felt it that day. Except maybe the day there was a tornado down the road and I opened the front door to check out what was happening outside and almost got sucked right out the door. Freaked me out!

But back to last year’s windstorm: The wind caught me off guard as it approached with what seemed a very masculine energy. It had a deep voice, and it persisted in talking, as if it had something profound to say. Powerfully verbose and rambling, the wind mimicked the sound of a distant train. I heard a howl above my head and looked up, to see what it was that was wailing so.

As if answering me the wind delivered its point and gusted through the strewn power lines. It was at that moment that I felt the force, like a sheet of pure steroid-juiced power. I could see its strength as it pushed the clouds, moving them deliberately, and quickly, so quickly that it created the illusion that the massive poles supporting the lines were swaying.

Even the birds yielded to its directive.  Their wings were lifted to heights so high I thought I’d actually see them touch the obedient white pillows in the sky.

tree in wind paintingWhistling and groaning, the gruff wind let us know it was in charge that day. As hapless bystanders, we would soon discover that to be true. We could only watch, wonder and wait to see just how this gloriously beautiful sunny day would be shadowed solely by the sheer force of wind messages.

My two greyhounds were on high alert. Their nostrils flared continuously throughout our walk, that superior canine sense of smell experiencing sensory overload. I mentioned how the wind energy felt very male to me. My boys validated that too, as both solidified their scents with very deliberate pawing and stomping on the ground. Forcefully and with resolve, like a bull communicating to the matador, “I am here and I am strong.”

Both dogs were displaying definite alpha signals as they pawed the ground, harder, longer and with more intent than I had seen most dogs do in the past. In fact, I had never seen Picasso paw the ground. His eyes, his ears, his posturing stance said it all: “This spot of ground is mine.”

The temperatures dropped rapidly and the wind chill factors caused me to turn around and head back home. Opting to cheat and cut our walk in half, I diverted us through the middle of the soccer field. With Picasso on my right and Luca on the left, we were literally blown across the field, in a zig-zag pattern. We fought the strong wind, making our way across the field, the street and finally back into the house, where we were met with warmth and calm.

Our little excursion was absolutely thrilling for me. I delight in storms of all kinds: rainstorms, thunderstorms, blizzards, ice storms and even the more subtle showers. They have an inspirational effect on me. I often wonder what my draw is to storms and could it have something to do with a past life or soul memory. Storms evokes a sense of pure awe in me.

This most recent wind storm held a sense of awe as well. Although the dogs and I were now sheltered from the gusts, I was still brimming with excitement. Not wanting to miss one more second of this magnificent wind event, I opened the back door, ushered the dogs out and took to the deck, bringing with me my iPad so I could take advantage of any creative flow. Creativity, for me, is a natural by-product of storms.

I was enraptured with the winds, watching the reactions of all the trees, the branches and their leaves, the birds, and smelling the aromas particular only to this wind.

Fine Art America photograph by Carol F. Austin

Weeping Willow tree blowing in the wind. Photo by Carol F. Austin. Copyright by Carol F. Austin. All Rights Reserved. Purchase prints at fineartamerica.com/featured/weeping-willow-tree-carol-f-austin.html

Listening to the sounds, the trills and squawks and screeches of the birds as they sent important messages to their flocks, the swoosh of the little sparrows and the crisp fluttering of the leaves as they made their way to safety in the deep nooks and crannies of my bushes, and the melodic songs of my chimes, each with its unique notes.

Well, the wind was not to let me be a mere observer. No, I would soon take on a role of participant. As I was enjoying the blissful moments as storm-watcher, a very ominous and eerie creaking put me on alert. Scanning the yard, following the mournful sounds, my heart skipped a beat as I caught sight of the fence wood bending. The creaking got louder and reminded me of that old radio show “Inner Sanctum.” Each successive gust pulled the fence farther away from its anchoring posts.

Panicked, I got all the dogs back in the house and ran to the fence. I reached for the top of the pickets, pulling with all my might, fighting the steroidal strength gusts, trying to bring the fence back to right. I can clearly see my neighbor’s yard, their gnomes and painted stones- turned-ladybugs and right into the windows of their sliding glass door. Holding on and swaying with the wood, each gust threatening to take me over and topple the panel, I start to yell, “Ah, HEY! HELLO?? ANYONE THERE?? NEED SOME HELP OVER HERE!” The only one who answered me was Sugar, their gorgeous Great Pyrenees. I’m not sure what she was saying but her barks told me that she was as shocked and surprised as I was. And all we could do was watch helplessly as the panel made its final pull from the post and fell over into their yard.

And, like the fence, my panic surrenders. What had previously been a joyous mood filled with awe-inspired admiration shifted quickly to the contrary and I looked to the sky and addressed the brute force: “Fucking wind!”

My fence blown over. photo by me.  :-)

My fence blown over. photo by me. 🙂

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Q is for Que Sera, Sera

QQue Sera, Sera. Whatever will be, will be. This Spanish saying was made into a song, written by songwriting team Jay Livingston and Ray Evans, and later made wildly popular when Doris Day sang it in the 1956 Alfred Hitchcock classic “The Man Who Knew Too Much.” The song won an Academy Award for Best Original Song and went on to become Doris Day’s signature song. I remember hearing it when I was young and asking my mom what it meant. It stuck with me then, as it sticks with me today.

Whatever will be, will be. I believe that. I believe in predetermination. I believe our fate is predestined, that our soul has a purpose and we live our lives, albeit unconsciously for a great bit of it, working to achieve that purpose, even with our free-will fully operational.

I believe that if it is supposed to be, then it will be. “If it’s meant to be, it will be” is a saying I often heard growing up when faced with some of life’s anxious moments, the yet unknowns, the disappointments and my own failures. It was something that was supposed to make me feel better about situations and outcomes, especially when I was nervous or displeased. And, truth be told, it actually did help lessen the sting and ease the pain if disappointment or heartbreak was the end result.

I believe in a Higher Purpose and that there is a reason for everything. I trust there is no such thing as coincidence. I accept that things happen for a reason, that people come into our lives for a reason –some for a lifetime, some for just a season, some for mere moments– and that every action has been orchestrated through the urging and guiding of our angels.

Even so, I do believe that we have free will and free choice. If and when our angels try to sway or persuade us one way or another, we still have the freedom to make the ultimate choice. It is at those pivotal forks in the road where we exercise our free-will ability to achieve, or not achieve, that right path for our soul purpose. This is where I think past lives come into play. If we happen to choose a path other than the one that has been ultimately planned for us, we play out the consequences of that decision until another time in another life, when we are once again presented with the opportunity to choose our right road. And this goes on and on throughout our multitudes of lifetimes until we get it right.

What helps us navigate this lifetime is our intuition. Our gut instinct, that strong urging that pulls us one way over another, is, I believe, our angels whispering to us the right direction.

Mihaly von Zichy painting

Angel Whispering to an Odalisque by Mihaly von Zichy (1827-1906)

It’s when we happen to go against that gut instinct and make a bad decision that we learn for the next time… IF, that is, we open ourselves up, IF we open our hearts and our minds to the possibility (in my case, the probability) of predestination, then our future actions will be carried out with more careful consideration as we will have (hopefully) learned to listen to our intuition and trust our destiny.

Que Sera, Sera: if nothing else, its meaning sure helps us endure life’s big tragedies and little disappointments along the way.

What about you? What do you believe? Do you believe in fate?

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