People are like stained – glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within. – Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
What a beautiful quote. I think my inner light needs re-lit! My flame seems to have died down to a mere flicker here lately. I’ve been in the doldrums for a few weeks now. And I know what the problem is: I have yet to accept myself AS I AM. I have spent a lifetime battling my weight and dammit, it really gets me down sometimes! I’m so fed up. The older I get, the harder it is to lose.
I need to just love myself the way I am and realize that this is simply the way God made me. It’s been a lifelong war and I’m just tired fighting it. For the last 7 weeks I’ve eaten nothing but hard boiled eggs, chicken and cabbage wraps and yogurt…and I lost a whoppin’ 2 pounds. Whippee shit. Very depressing.
Oh how I wish I could be happy just being me. What’s worse, the older I get, I find it even harder to love and accept myself. I used to have so much self-confidence…even back when I was way bigger than I am now. I was invincible. There was nothing I couldn’t achieve and my weight never stopped me from anything. Well, it stopped me from trying to water ski, but that’s another story altogether. I think you know what I mean. My self-confidence oozed from me and in turn I accomplished much. So what happened to that girl who was brimming with self-assuredness? What happened to my self-confidence? I can tell you one thing: It has up and left the damn building.
Could it be that I think time is running out? Truth be told, time is running out. I can’t let myself languish in despair. Maybe tomorrow I can get up and turn up that flame within so that my beauty can shine through again. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross nailed it with her powerful quote: “People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.” So true. May your inner light shine bright so the world can see how beautiful you really are!
So how does Elisabeth Kubler-Ross’ quote speak to you? Can you relate?