We all have them: those voices that constantly criticize us and cause us to self-deprecate with all kinds of negative self-talk. The voices in our heads that shape our self-image and often just downright irritate the shit out of us.
Last week we were coming from Lowe’s (my favorite store) having just bought a truckload of mulch, and Brian pulled into the Valero station so he could run in and get us some pop. I sat there in the truck, nit-picking myself in the side-view mirror. You know the drill: “Geez, I’m gonna need a facelift pretty soon!” and “Fuck man, where did these wrinkles come from?” Yada yada.
Brian comes out and is standing next to the window talking to me when he suddenly says, “You look good in this truck.”
And then he walked around the back of the truck, got in and pulled out. Down the road a minute or so later, I said “Thanks for what you said back there. I had just been sittin’ here looking at myself in the mirror and pulling my skin up to see how much better I’d look with a facelift…”
And he interrupted and said, “Damn Michele. Do you ever LISTEN to yourself?” He always catches me. And he lets me know it. But then immediately that girl in my head said, “Yeah, but he loves you. That’s why he sees you that way.”
I just looked at him for a long moment and smiled. Yep, that’s when I decided. I need to strangle that bitch in my head who keeps talkin’ shit to me. Move over Sista. Make room for some positive voices…
(Stephen Lynch – Voices in My Head)
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